It's been a while since I've posted on here, and I have something which I'd like to share.
For those of you who don't know, I'm the kind of person that tends to get anxious about things. I'll let myself worry about that test I'm about to take, that speech I'm about to give in front of those people, or what that person will think of that thing I did. I'll allow myself to be pessimistic and expect the worst outcome in a given situation. Instead of living in the moment, I will let my peace be taken away from me by worrying about what the future holds. Sometimes, the anxiety I experience will be so bad that I'll physically feel it, and it's not the greatest feeling in the world.
I also experienced problems with fear and anxiety in my spiritual life. In a sense, I've let fear become my lord instead of Jesus. I would say little prayers such as the famous "Jesus, I trust in You" (this one's from the beautiful Divine Mercy devotion, check it out!), but I didn't always feel like I really trusted.
I recently attended a Men's Retreat at my parish. During my prayer time at the retreat, I wrote a letter to Jesus and was given the grace to see the extent to which I've allowed fear to control my life.
"Let my affirmations of trust be more than empty words", I wrote.
Since going on this retreat, I've resolved to grow in my trust towards Jesus. I'm learning to say "Jesus, I trust in You", and actually mean it. Like, really mean it. On top of that, I'm also learning to consciously choose to not let myself start worrying about things. There is a beautiful freedom that comes with truly trusting in the Lord and placing your worries in His hands.
Will I ever feel scared or anxious again? Yep. Will I probably have moments where I let anxiety get the best of me? You bet. From now on, can I choose to overcome my fear by placing my trust in Jesus? Absolutely! I encourage you to do the same.
Geo
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